happiness...
can pop out suddenly, riding on the back of words said as matter of factly as "it is raining". "It's not like its all worth it in some mystical way. It's the worst thing that ever happened. If I could do one thing over, in my whole life, it would be that would have never happened". you can't change the past. but with any luck, you don't have to - with any luck at all, or more likely with G-ds grace, you don't have to change it to make it ok. Just seeing it for what it was is enough.
there are things i've done in my life that i have spent a lot of time trying to 'fix'; things i wish i hadn't done or said; places i wish i'd never gone ..its time they become the song they really are....
"in my life....i love you more".